Being Twenty-Something

Hola friends .. found this article in my JUNKYARD folder (I don’t actually remember having this folder).. anyway, I was cleaning up my PC (blame it on the preggy nesting syndrome) and found this.FYI, because of the syndrome I have been cleaning everything for the past few days for so many times. Everything is almost spotless..So, here it is BEING TWENTY-SOMETHING for you guys to read ! Enjoy…

They call it the Quarter-life Crisis
It is when you stop going along with the crowd
And start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself
That you didn’t know and may not like. You start feeling insecure
And wonder where you will be in a year or two,
But then get hot and scared because you barely know where you are now.

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe,
Those friends that you thought you were so close to
Aren’t exactly the greatest people you have ever met
And the people you have lost touch with
Are some of the most important ones.
What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too
And are not really cold or catty or mean or insincere,
But that they are as confused as you are.

You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing
Or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that
You are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared.
You miss the comforts of college, of groups,
Of socializing with the same people on a constant basis.
But then you realize that maybe they weren’t so great after all.
You are beginning to understand yourself and what you want and do not want.
Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing
And find yourself judging a bit more than usual because suddenly,
You realize that you have certain boundaries in your life
And add things to your list of what is acceptable and what is not.
You are insecure and then secure.

You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your life.
You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly change is the enemy
And you cry and cling on to the past with dear life
But soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away
And there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
The stupid ones plateau, the smart ones rise.
You get your heartbroken and wonder how someone you loved
Could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder
Why you can’t meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.
You love someone but maybe love someone else too
And cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap,
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot starts to look pathetic.
You go through the same emotions and questions over and over
And talk with your friends about the same topics
Because you cannot seem to make a decision.

You wonder what in the hell is wrong with you.
You worry about loans and money and the future, making a life for yourself.
While winning the race would be great,
right now you’d just like to be a contender!

We are making a lot of mistakes, but helping one another learn from them.
We will piss one another off, and laugh at the end of a conversation
That started with angry words.
We are a group that talks behind the backs of the same people we call to meet up with on a Friday night,
But we are sorry about it and we know that we were just being insecure like they have been.
What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it
And we are all in this together. We are in our best of times
And our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
We are friends, and in 10 years we will be friends
Who have figured out where we fit in this world.

Cheers everyone! Have a wonderful life ahead.. *wink..*wink

I hate this part right here …

Hi dearie.. Sorry for the long silence and really hate the fact that I was unable to go online for nearly 2 weeks because of the stupid internet line at the office is totally Kaput.. and here I am at 12.30am checking my office mail, doing office work and of course hoping to be able to post a new entry for my blog. Aleesha is asleep with Aril, so I took the oppurtunity to log in and hopefully will get things done, at least half of it. *sigh , just can’t accept the reason given by the IT department but than again there is no point of complaining since ……….. dunno-lah, malas i want to comment. As long as the boss won’t blame me and the others for not doing our job and missed out on some urgent matters yang dah terlepas the dateline…(which I have come across a few in my inbox … damn!) .. that’s why I hate this part when it come to the office internet line, I just can’t stop and there is just so much for me to compaint about (and trust me, I am not the only one).. eee, better put a stop about it.. or else someone will be pissed off reading this post.. so that’s it.. Ok . FULL STOP.

Next topic please….

Last weekend, i attended Bear (Edzorrah) wedding at Kinarut. It’s a wet but nice, beautiful and colourful wedding. I really love the colourful clothes that decorated the house (it’s a must for the Bajau’s to have and hang all those colourful, beautiful, handmade clothes for display on the occasions and it was beautiful). I did took few pictures of Aleesha sitting n front of the clothes (there’s a Bajau words for it, obviously they don’t called it colourful clothes of coz.. but, unfortunately I don’t know what is the name since no.1 : I am not a Bajau, and no.2 : I seldom attend wedding ceremony unless it was a friends (close friends ) wedding only).. so, sorry ya guys. Will try to upload pics of Aleesha with the colourful clothes thingy soon (left the phone cable at the office…) Macamlah I can upload pics at the officekan.. Damn!! Opsss.. sorry, can’t help myself talking, writing (or is it more like complaining) about the stupid internet office line AGAIN.. *sigh. Anyway, the next best thing is I met Lynda at the wedding (at last). It’s been 2-3 years since i last met her. Lolie was there too. So, it really made my day since i am able to met few old friends back at the Uni.. We plan to make some sort of reunion soon.. but it have to be Ladies DAY out.. Again, it should be DAY not Ladies NIGHT out.. Take note of that k Lolie since u’re incharged of it.

Oh Ya, MIL helped to decide on the baby’s name, it’s going to be Akramin Shah.. Akramin means Noble (mulia) and Shah means king(raja) so, the meaning will be something like The noble king (raja yang mulia) .. Ok la kan. I love it because of the classic part of the name. I personally think that Amin is somehow classic and of coz it have a good meaning too.. So, Akramin Shah is now 36 week ++ and I have another 4 weeks to go. baby’s head is already engaged.. So, InsyaAllah Eveything will be smooth and no complications or what so ever.. Do pray for me ya!!And just for the record, baby’s weight is 2.5kg already now, so expecting to be delivered between 3.4 – 3.6kg.. Arghhh!! Scary…..

Opsssyy…Asse is online.. i have to stop now, need to catch up with her.. (Thank god for YM).. there is just too many stories to tell and complain about.. Later everyone!! Good nite or is it good morning!!