Seriusly, I am so pissed off. Hubby used to tell me that, whatever happens around us are lessons for us to watch and learn and for us to remind ourselves that we shouldn’t be like that, act like that or do the same thing as those we hate.

But , if you want to play your dirty game, play it right and seriusly, if i am two faced- would i be wearing this one???? 

Argghh.. Hate YOU!!

mode: depress….  .. adios peeps. Hope u guys have a better one than mine!

 I asked for wisdom and Allah gave me problems to solve..

I asked for Courage and Allah gave me obstacles to overcome..

I asked for Love and Allah gave me troubled people to help…

I asked for Favors and Allah gave me opportunities.. …

Maybe I received nothing I wanted…

But I received everything I needed…..

Short but very meaningful rite… Found this in one of my friend’s facebook and want to share it with u guys …

Not really in writing mood rite now. Later peeps.. hugss!

Hi Peeps  ..

It’s the 10th day of 2011 and it is my 1st entry for this year. It took me 10 days to find some space to write and it’s like past midnight now and hoping that i will be able to post something here today..

My hope for 2011 will be:

TO ACHIEVED AND DO WHAT  I AM SUPPOSED TO DO LAST YEAR… That should be it. The only list I think i should have … else there’s no point of having ANOTHER long list of what my resolutions are, or I-hope-list  if the previous one are still in queue and some are even untouched and haven’t kick off yet … i am so not proud typing this down but this is a fact and i only have me and myself to make me realise that.. Anyway, Conclusion for my 2010 year will be . :

I have my ups and downs which taught me to be a stronger and tougher person, I learn many new things along the way, unforgetable challenges, unexpected experience, I met and make new friends, I learn about life, about who we are, why we are here and not there, why shit things happen (the good and bad), why sometimes we have to do what we don’t want to do or don’t like to do but we have to do it , and why our 30 years of actions, habits is not practical anymore..   errr..watdahell!! too much nonsense here.. i am SO lost in my own words..   anyway, it’s the new year and this is the real thing guys -

 i am hoping to be a better person, hoping for a better life, better health, better fortune, better of everything.. for family, work, friends, health, the earth (i mean it guys.. i will start recycle.. ),i hope the war will stop,  and of course I hope the bestest things for myself (hmm… it sounds too selfish so i need to rephrase it).. I hope the bestest for myself, aril, aleesha and also Akramin shah..!and that is the end of my post today on Hope for 2011..

 Adios peeps!! good day and it’s never to late to wish each and everyone of u out there a HAPPY NEW YEAR  and let’s hope for a wonderful and amazing and of course the best  365 days of our life !

Salam and May God bless all of us!InsyaAllah..

Anyway, early this morning we went to penampang to see all the cousins and nephews than i am off to Rody’s house. Have few more open houses tomorrow..  It’s fun to have relatives gathering once in a while.. it’s amazing that I only know few of my cousins and i have so many nephews and nieces that i don’t know about… But thanks to facebook, it helps to connects everyone intio 1 big group. Bravo FB! haha …

Well, it’s time for bed now..  Wishing all of you a wonderful christmas, happy holidays and more wonderful and beautiful 365 days in 2011. will be back to post on my 2011 resolution and what not..

let’s sing together with this lyrics-  do google for the songs ya !!

 
I saw Mommy kissing Santa Claus
Underneath the mistletoe last night
She didn’t see me creep
Down the stairs to have a peep
She thought that I was tucked up
In my bedroom, fast asleep

Then I saw Mommy tickle Santa (tickle, tickle, Santa Claus) Claus
Underneath his beard so snowy white
Oh, what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night

He saw Mommy kissing(kissing, kissing) Santa Claus
I did! I really did see Mommy kissing Santa Claus
And I’m gonna tell my Dad
(Bell sound)
Then I saw Mommy tickle Santa (tickle, tickle Santa Claus) Claus
Underneath his beard so snowy white
Oh, what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night

Oh, what a laugh it would have been
If Daddy had only seen
Mommy kissing Santa Claus last night

I did! I did! I really did see Mommy kissing Santa Claus
You gotta believe me! You just gotta believe me!
Come on, fellas, believe me! You just gotta believe me! (I told you, I told you)

I was already asleep actually but I was awake by mum’s phone call. Mum called just to know whether 1st : me and the kids are ok… 2nd: whether i have enough money or need extra cash … Love my mum for that! hehe .. 3rd: she was asking whether i’ll be sending my kids to stay with her in Tuaran next 2 weeks while I am in KL..  (means: I haven’t call her for quite sometimes and was wondering WTH happens to us… it also means she misses her grandkids..)… should put a reminder somewhere: to call mom at least once a week(seriusly, do i need a reminder for that??) ..  Mum call always at the rite time, i mean, at the moment, me and the kids is having a bad flu since yesterday , and I just ask some cash from  hubby to buy something.. hehe.. wow impressive kan .. Conclusion to this is …. Mother’s instinct is the best and it’s always rite ..  LOVE you mum !

 I wanted to write a litlle bit more actually but i was interrupted by chatting with a friend of mine (my x-classmate) on facebook . It was short and a funny one., and i just can’t seem to write more now.. So i will try to post an update on the kids soon..

Before i dozed off.. i hope i’ll recover from this flu soon..  I have lots of important things to do for the next two weeks and i need all the focus, energy and strength to go thru it!! Dear flu, pls go far far away from me… shhuu.. good nite everyone! have a wnderful sunday !

P/s: to my dear friend yang akan membuat assgnment yg ntahapa2 tu..Sudah  tentu malam ini aku akan tidur dibuai mimpi yg indah sebab mimpi ko buat asgmnt utk subjek **tuuutttt ** .. Aku tau ko baca blog ni dan ko tau la sapa dirimu … aiseh!! ada bunyi mcm sastera2 ke.. jgn marah ehh !! pic attached is specially dedicated to u .. huhu !!

I am back after my 2 weeks break..  Raya was ok even though hubby have to go back to KK on the 4th day of Raya becoz of work.. me, the kids and maria were left to celebrate raya with the inlaws. It was fun, even thou there were times when i wish hubby was around, especially when there is no one to take our pics and need xtra help with the kids..hehe.. but other than that, it was a blast! Mum is gonna do a Raya open house this coming sunday and u all are most welcome to come! Me and hubby plan to do kenduri for the hse+bday aleesha+raya open hse on the 2nd October 2010, InsyaAllah! Pls come if u r around the neighbourhood ya..

I put on weight… as expected! *sigh .. Penang is a place for food lovers and unfortunately i am one of them. for eg:  Me, hubby, bro n sis inlaw ate nasi kandar kayu at 12 midnight on the 1 st day of raya… so, that explains it all! and that is only one of the example.. the rest are history! not going to tell .. conclusion to that : Activate herbalife ..AGAIN!! Arghhh..

not really in the mood to write actually..  works are piling up and lots of things yet to be done due to the 2 weeks leave…  haven’t got the chance to transfer any pic yet, keep on forgetting to bring the phone cable along.. BTW, thanks to hubby for the new hphone.. the ‘old’ hphone is wracked by Akramin 2 days before raya and hubby bought samsung wave for mui! yeah.. Love u dear hubby ! *wink ..

The only pic raya i have at this very moment is this one, family picture with inlaws (belum edit pun, so pls ignore the bground yg ntahapa2 tu…)  taken in Penang on the 1st day of raya. To all my dear friends , Selamat Hari Raya, Maaf Zahir Batin! Have a GOOD one..

•  handy and smaller than notebook… I can’t imagine myself reading via notebook 24-7.. like i’ve mention in my previous post i read EVERYWHERE and at ANYPLACE. I just don’t think a notebook is convenient for me. My11 days Raya holidays is just around the corner and I think i need a handy tools to be with if i want to finish reading all those ebooks..do let me know if there’s other new hi-tech gadget that i should know about.. with the price if u may, Thank u! ( hmm… i-pad looks like convenient don’t u think? but naaahh..  maybe not!!! )

Other than that, am also wondering whether it’s illegal for me to download all those ebooks.. hmm, i mean it is FREE .. so, is that an OK or not! Since i don’t know the law, that makes me not GUILTY! yay ..

I really and strongly feels i want to share with u guys the website url here but somehow i don’t think i should… bcoz of:

• Suddenly, i am too stingy to share it with others.. hehe!!
• i don’t want u guys to flood the site .. than it’ll be hard for me to download more books later on .. again, it’s stingy actually.. this is just a lame excuse for not sharing.. hahaha!!
• stingy/greedy is all over me.. !!

i feel like i have turn myself into a very bad person now when i am not actually*wink *wink… so, for those of u who are really, really really a nerd  into reading plese let me know by leaving comments and yours truly will email the url to you ok..

Please don’t hate me for having these books in my drive at the moment …

and… i have few more e-books downloading at this very moment!! huhu …  catch up with u guys later. Adios peeps !!

- a year older, a year wiser … agree !

- i am 30 and I can still walk 5km + jog for 1km — (non-stop) i think i am still ok. stamina is still there.. – all in 40 minutes time.. Yes, I am bragging.. haha. I dare u !!

- a bit over weight, but I am SO into reducing it ! hope..hope..hope..

- I have 2 beautiful, adorable kids whom i love very2 much … my heart and soul goes out to them, Aleesha and Akramin Shah!

- I am on the right track (so far) … I know more better things are coming my way this year end or maybe by next year.. Some friends will rebel, envy, hate,heart, love me more or maybe not…. These are among the things that I think will happen and I have to face it. I can’t really tell what is it actually.. at least not yet, not now….I only need to do, write, say the right thing at the right time and maybe, everything will go as plan.. InsyaAllah!

- Am learning and experiencing more new, interesting things and facts each and every day.. Work is a challenge for me. GOOD stress is haunting me all the time (emphasis on the GOOD stress, so that i won’t be TOO stress thingking about work and it will turn into a BAD one ) .. haha! don’t know whether that work or not but so far it helps.

- Health is a major thing for me n hubby now.. We believe that when we reach 30, health is something that we should worry about and to learn more about it . We are trying our best to eat healthy food, exercise whenever we can and what not. I am not a health freak yet..so don’t be too suprised if you catch me eating like crazy at any of the fast food restaurant and raya is approaching soon.. And i’ll be at Penang some more so, whoooaaa .. who can say NO to nasi kandar? No one rite.. exactly! but, maybe this time i PLAN to go for a ‘light nasi kandar’ only.. Maybe!!!!   Hmm.. BTW, wujud ka light nasi kandar ni?? haha.. watever!

- I want to feel good being a 30 years old person no matter what it takes ! and I am already into it… Yeah Baby!!! heart..heart..heart!!!

To all the 30 years old peeps out there.. here’s a nice, funny quote and poem for US–> the big 3-ohss!!

Everything I know I learned after I was thirty“. – Georges Clemenceau
Age is a matter of feeling, not of years. – George William Curtis

(got the poem from halfthoughts.com)

It’s time to say goodbye to your twenties.
There’s no need to shed a tear.
Although it was such a happy decade,
A happier one is here.

You’re still young enough to boogie all night,
And enjoy a drink or two.
But you’re old enough to know when to stop,
Though that won’t be stopping you.

There are very many good years ahead.
Just take a look at the stats,
You’ve 64% of life to go,
And possibly more than that.

They sometimes say “life begins at 40”.
By that proverb’s reckoning,
You’ve another ten years to please yourself,
Before life really begins.

Medical texts say women at 30,
Often become randier.
That’s good news for ladies, but for the men,
The plus points are handier.

If you want to exercise discretion;
Deny the passing of time,
Then simply pretend that you’re 25,
Until you reach 39!

Be happy that you’ve reached the big 3-oh,
You won’t fall into ruin.
When you still run amok, once in a while,
You’ll know just what you’re doing…

It’s our 2nd week of puasa today .. 14 days of puasa to be exact and another 2 weeks to celebrate Raya. This year, raya will be at hubby’s side so, we are going back to Seremban and than off to Penang on the 8th. I hope Akramin will be able to handle the journey and hope, hope hope the jam won’t be as bad as last Raya. It was horrible!

Aril is outstation for the whole week, so i am all alone for sahur and also for buka puasa. Huhu.. bored like hell! Buka puasa tu taklah rasa sangat sebab most of the time memang buka puasa d luar pun tapi sahur is a torture. Sahur alone at 3am .. very sad!!

Went jalan-jalan with Aleesha and Akramin last night. we end up dancing in the car lead by Aleesha, of course. Hehe… Even before i left for work, i have to so-called dance in the car first than baru boleh gerak p office..or else she’ll scream her heart out. hahaha….  Akramin is following her sister footstep and they are just soooo adorable. Over the weekend, It was only me and the kids left at home. We send Aril to the airport and Maria is on her weekend leave, so me and the kids  watched Hannah Montana the movie and they were dancing the whole 1 hour and half. Really love spending time with the kids at home. We had fabulous time together. As a tribute to Hannah Montana, here’s the lyric of “The Climb” by Miley Cyrus.

I can almost see it.
That dream I’m dreaming, but
There’s a voice inside my head saying
You’ll never reach it
Every step I’m takin’
Every move I make
Feels lost with no direction,
My faith is shakin’
But I gotta keep tryin’
Gotta keep my head held high

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
It’s the climb

The struggles I’m facing
The chances I’m taking
Sometimes might knock me down, but
No I’m not breaking
I may not know it, but
These are the moments that
I’m gonna remember most
I’ve just gotta keep goin’, and
I gotta be strong
Just keep pushing on, but

There’s always gonna be another mountain

I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
It’s the climb

There’s always gonna be another mountain
I’m always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I’m gonna have to lose
Ain’t about how fast I get there
Ain’t about what’s waitin’ on the other side
It’s the climb

Keep on movin’
Keep climbin’
Keep faith baby
It’s all about, it’s all about
The climb
Keep the faith, keep your faith, woah

 Salam Ramadhan everyone !!